As I stand on the brink of huge financial decision my heart says run with the wind and risk it all for what I believe in. The voices of reason pull me out of my will to LIVE and bid me return to the safety of the life I had before. The one that drained my lungs of breath and broke me down to a puddle of nothingness vacant of personality and joy.
I took my health and sanity back into my own hands and devoted so much blood to healing my heart it strikes me as absurd to even suggest altering my forward motion when I am so close.
The way I see it I can build it now and work really hard to teach it to breathe with my vision or I can deviate from this path I've worked so hard to find my footing on and risk losing focus and maybe never build it. I'm just beginning to streamline and focus and fine tune my voice.
Most of my life has been spent letting others make decisions for me. I have always done others work administrating, holding up the walls of someone else's dreams. Now it is my time. Ironically, I will still be in service, but as a guide I an arena where my intuition has place, my sensitivities can thrive.
I have been given a gift. The world will change, or not, but if I refuse to live my dream even one day in this lifetime while it sits in front if me for the taking I will have wasted our most precious human asset, creation.
So, this means the management will scowl and groan, but what if I succeed? What if it turns out exactly as I envision it to be?
you are so good!!! - Jens
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